Audrina Patridge is choosing to focus on the positive amid her divorce from estranged husband Corey Bohan.
In a reflective post shared to Instagram on Sunday, the Hills alum admitted that 2017 has had its share of “ups & downs,” but she’s striving to live out “love, positivity and forgiveness” moving forward.
“This year has been quite a year for me! Full of ups & downs, happiness & sadness,” Patridge, 32, began the “top nine” post, which showcases a user’s nine most-liked Instagram photos from 2017 in a collage format.
“Despite the bad I’ll always hold on to the happy memories and strive for love, positivity and forgiveness … the unknown & change is always a scary feeling!” she continued.
“But by walking in faith I have learned to trust god even when I don’t understand his plan….” she wrote.
Patridge also expressed gratitude for the friends and family members, including 18-month-old daughter Kirra Max — whom she shares with Bohan — who have supported her throughout her journey.
“I am so grateful for Kirra, my family, friends and everyone who has supported me….. even the ones who have critiqued me;)❤️” wrote Patridge, who concluded with an upbeat encouragement: “Who’s ready for a new journey in 2018??!! I know I am:) I wish you all the best! Adios 2017 the count down is on!”
Patridge filed for divorce and was granted a temporary restraining and child abduction prevention order against 35-year-old Bohan — they married in Hawaii in November 2016 — in September.
In her declaration submitted Sept. 18, Patridge chronicled multiple instances of alleged emotional abuse and violent outbursts by Bohan.
“I am fearful of [Corey’s] temper because he cannot control his swearing and personal attacks on me, even when in the presence of our young daughter,” she alleged. “I fled my home with our daughter [on Sept. 6], and have been staying with my parents because of [Bohan’s] abusive behavior.”
Bohan denied Patridge’s accusations in a legal response Sept. 21.
Patridge was granted full custody and a temporary restraining order, but in October, BMX biker Bohan requested joint legal and physical custody of Kirra and spousal support from his ex.
This article originally appeared on PEOPLE