"If this is what God has planned for my life, to punish me so harshly and deprive my children of their mother, I hope he will give my children the strength to cope," said Connor, who owns a pasta business in Byron Bay.
Connor is on trial with her boyfriend David Taylor over the killing of Sudarsa on a Kuta beach on Aug. 17, last year.
Taylor, a British DJ who was also living in Bryon Bay, has admitted to bashing Sudarsa with a Bintang beer bottle, binoculars and mobile phone, but claims it was in self defence. Taylor says an argument erupted with Sudarsa on the beach over a missing bag and says he feared for his life after the policeman tried to choke him. He claims that when he left the victim on the beach he was alive.
Connor says her only involvement in the crime was to try and separate the two men when they were fighting in the sand.
Connor said she loved her children, who she had not seen since August, “more than anything” and they missed her.
She told reporters she was “expecting the worst” and had “lost all hope”.
Prosecutors have requested Connor be convicted of manslaughter and serve eight years in prison. Prosecutors have also recommended David Taylor, who has been charged with murder, be sentenced to eight years’ prison.
The trial, which began in the Denpasar District Court on Nov. 9 last year, has heard that Taylor visited Bali in August last year in the hope of a romantic holiday with his girlfriend of just four months.
The judges are expected to deliver their verdict in mid-March.