Abby Lee Miller has opted to remove 80 percent of her stomach through gastric sleeve surgery, a decision she made now that she is not starring on Dance Moms.
The 50-year-old told Entertainment Tonight that she is still feeling some bitterness toward Dance Moms producers, who she claims were partially responsible for “keeping” her overweight.
“If I was trying to be vegan, [they would] hand me a hoagie sandwich or Italian sub from somewhere,” she said. “I’m like, ‘What is this, lunch meat? I can’t eat this!'”
The former Dance Moms star said she is trying to get into better shape before her court date in May.
“I hate what I look like on TV and I want to look better and nothing makes the mothers more jealous,” she said. “There’s your motivation. Payback’s a b—-.”
In March, the dance instructor announced her resignation from the reality series in an Instagram post, accusing officials behind the popular Lifetime show of treating her “like dirt” after she wrapped filming for season 7B.
A version of this article originally appeared on PEOPLE.com