Teigen also opens up to InStyle about her battle with postpartum depression, which she admits she first struggled to understand. “I thought I was just being a selfish a—hole,” she said, sharing that it reached a point that she was staying home with the curtains drawn before being formally diagnosed. “It wasn’t just a mental thing of, you know, ‘I’m sad’ I actually couldn’t move.”

Continued the model, “I have really good days and really bad days, and I don’t tend to talk about the really bad days. But I would hate for people to think those days didn’t exist.”