“If the two doctors, that I trust, have told me it wouldn’t be safe for me to get pregnant again, I have to listen to that,” Kim revealed during her interview.
“But because I don’t know anyone that has been a surrogate or used one, I didn’t really think about that as an option for me.”
Later, the 36-year-old met with a mom who not only carried her own child, but also used a surrogate, in order to pick her brain about the whole experience.
“I’m more worried, because I gave birth to two. There’s a sense in me that because I went through all that pain for these two babies and that I know we did this together…” Kim started to tell Natalie.
“There’s no one that would feel your love [like this baby], they are literally near your heart and inside of you.”
“My bond with my kids is so strong,”she continued. “I think my biggest fear is that if I had a surrogate is, would I love them the same? That’s the main thing I keep thinking about.”
Natalie then assured Kim that that’s not an issue.
“There’s not a day where I have any thought that my love for my kids are different, that my connection to my kids is different,” Natalie told her. “You get to carry one and have them close to you, but then the other is because you so desperately wanted them in your family.”
Towards the end of the episode, Kim decided to discuss the entire surrogate thing with her mom.
“I’ve come to the conclusion in my mind that I can’t carry another one. So now I want to explore surrogacy,” Kim told Kris.
“That scares me for you,” the 60-year-old told her. “What if she gives birth and then grabs the baby and makes a run for it?”
“I don’t think she can,” Kim reassured Kris. “Also, the best thing, I could have a new baby and have no one know and live my life for a good year before we announce it.
“But I don’t know if it’s for me,” she continued. “I really don’t know.”
This article originally appeared on PEOPLE.com
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