Lisa Rinna says she blames herself for her daughter Amelia Gray’s anorexia diagnosis.
During the latest episode of Bravo’s Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, the actress opens up about her 17-year-old daughter’s eating disorder, admitting that it’s been an arduous battle with dozens of setbacks.
WATCH: AMELIA OPENS UP ABOUT DEALING WITH HER ANOREXIA
“Amelia has issues with food. You watch Amelia take two steps forward and one step back,” the emotional star revealed in her confessional interview. “You can’t help but blame yourself. You know, it’s like, ‘What did we do to f*** her up?’ Maybe we did something. I don’t know. I just know that it’s really, really hard to watch Amelia be in pain.”
She continued: “It’s not an easy, clean, ‘Okay great, you know, you did that, you had that, you got the help.’ It’s not like that. It’s just, you know, one day at a time.”
Her painfully honest admission comes after a snippet of Amelia’s battle was shown on the hit reality series. In one scene, Lisa’s husband, Mad Men actor Harry Hamlin, 67, is shown trying to convince his daughter to sit down for a meal he’d prepared— burgers, hot dogs and pie— however tensions reached an all-time high when she refused to eat.
“I’m not hungry,” she said, to which Lisa replied, “You guys have to eat a little bit for dad.”
“No, I’m just not hungry. I’m allergic to everything.”
“You’re allergic to the salad?” their oldest daughter Delilah questioned before Amelia hit back. “No, I can have salad. But I don’t like that salad.”
Later in the episode, with tears in her eyes, Lisa reflected on her daughter’s battle, admitting she’soften wondered whether she’ll ever beat her anorexia.
“‘The scariest thing about anorexia is: Is she going to have this forever? I don’t want to see her suffer. You want to fix it. You want to make it go away,” she said. “You want to erase it. You know, you just want to take your child out of pain. You don’t want your child to be in pain.”
In March last year, Amelia opened up about her eating disorder, penning a lengthy message about her struggles alongside a photo of herself before her anorexia took a hold of her and after.
“Last year at this time there was no doubt that I was not okay. Not only physically but also mentally. I feel like sometimes people forget that just because your job involves being in front of the camera, doesn’t mean you can’t have bad days. We’re human. All of us. Instead of people ever commenting on my mental stability, people commented on my weight. Usually, when people are struggling with an eating disorder it stems from your mind, and your body is a reflection of it,” she wrote. “I could go on and on about that time of my life, but the most important part about it was waking up one morning and deciding to stop sabotaging myself.
“My health, my physical health, my mental health and everything about myself. Once I got the help that I needed, shortly after the second photo was taken, I began to try to love myself for me. I am SO beyond humbled and grateful to have the platform that I do at such a young age, and to wake up every morning with a little girl reaching out to me and telling me I am her inspiration, really makes me feel like I have a purpose. I went through this journey not for attention, not for people to pitty me, but to help. I am on this earth to help people, and I know that.
On a previous episode of RHOBH earlier this year, Amelia admitted to her mother that her struggle with the eating disorder got so bad that at one point, she “could have died.”
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